updated on june 16, 2026, from home, in between lives in an aram:mayhem game
thinking
about moving out and how far away that dream is. i earn nowhere near enough to live on my own. i want my mom to leave on one of her month-long trips so i can finally find peace. my boyfriend’s family is moving a little nearer to me, so maybe things are not all that bad (though the circumstances are not ideal).
feeling
- both old and young. i just turned 25 a few days ago. ice wants to host my birthday party at his house before he leaves it behind. i haven’t had a party for myself in almost 7 years.
- jumpy. i watched obsession recently. i’ve never been good with horror, unfortunately. but this one made me cry. i consider myself a very anxious partner, and though i’m definitely not as bad as i used to be, i still have moments where i’m very insecure.
- annoying. i sometimes need to learn how to be quiet. i want to be more mysterious, but i get lonely quickly and i cannot help but fill the silence with something inane. i consider myself lucky that my friends tolerate me at all.
occupying myself with
listening tofull playlist↗
